a bag of bare bones

Month: January, 2015


now i know, q is right
she is always right
should have listened
but i chose to listen to myself instead

you said it
i’ll do it
no matter how hard it is
no matter how many times i need to do it
over and over again
you’ll never change
you never will



Can you tell that I can’t breathe?


who can understand what im feeling right now?
let me cry and bury myself in my fucking tears




counting sheeps

sleepless nights x 5


Look at the beautiful rain.
Today i sat at the bus stop
I stopped to admire the sounds of nature.
So tranquilizing and peaceful yet chaotic at the same time
as though they were trying to tell me something
something that i couldnt understand as always

What have I done?

“What can you do when your good isn’t good enough
And all that you touch tumbles down”


onning my fav slack wear at home, it just feels like im in the right place at the right time to write.
It all feels extremely nice suddenly, to pause and stop and to reflect about everything that has happened

“The skies, they remind me of you and you.”

It has been seven months, s e v e n.
Still, clinging to my blanket and snuggies and crying till the sun is up
hoping that my soul could be given a break, and a chance to see everything clearly once again
Even after so long, you have been holding on all this while and i finally start to believe that this is something that only some could understand. Trying to understand this feeling. This feeling of when everything crumbles or when everything falls in neatly as it is supposed to be, or when things starts to fall in neatly yet crumble again.

Wondering why do skies change their colour is not as important as knowing that,
That is just how it is.

Are we skies then?

if i were a boy

I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I’d be a better man
I’d listen to her
Cos I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
Cos he’s taking you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

It’s a little too late for you to come back
Say it’s just a mistake
Think I’d forgive you like that
If you thought I would wait for you
You thought wrong

But you’re just a boy
You don’t understand
Yeah you don’t understand

How it feels to love a girl
Someday you wish you were a better man
You don’t listen to her
You don’t care how it hurts
Until you lose the one you wanted
Cos you’re taking her for granted
And everything you had got destroyed
But you’re just a boy

wait for _

why am i still cold after the winter

little kitten

how am i gonna deal w this

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